inSINcere – a poem by studentasim

When you have done everything you could have done
To apologize
But are not forgiven…
Can you not see my Sincerity?
One apology
Two apologies
Three apologies
More
Painful
For me
And you
But
Still can’t YOU SEE my Sincerity?
Am I not there?
Did I not show?
Unlike others
Who wouldn’t have cracked to look back
But NO
I realize the mistake
An error in judgement
I didn’t know better
Really
Truly
Sorry
But not even a silent acknowledgement?
I’m not looking for you to take me back with open arms
Just acknowledge, even silently, my Sincerity
I was forthcoming
It never happened again
It never happened to anyone else
You probably loathe me
I understand
Just realize
I came clean
It’s a milestone
That’s all
I am not the same person
Yet I’m still hostage in your account
Even years later
So who is Insincere
Me
or You?
Times like this tell me one thing
Only God is my witness
And Only God is my judge
I’m not playing the God card
Just looking to be released
Is there no such bargain
Of Sincerity for Forgiveness?
Since you can’t do it
Maybe God can
When you have done everything you could have done
To apologize
But are not forgiven
InSINcere…